@forever-rachel

hmmm. todae went to BOON LAY SEC for YOU CAN DO IT run! okie. it was quite a nice run eventually. today i manage to speak infront of the class and letting them know more about the "S" profile!! wah!! dis is the first tym i ever dare doing that. I was in RAFFY's group. together with mariel and joseph (another guy who just joined us for the first tym as Raffy asked him to do so). okie. it was damn nice. the class was hyperactive and they are reali very sweet and cute! love them loads!! thanks mariel for the pencil holder!!

WHAT AM I DOING?
WHAT HAVE I DO?
WHAT IS ALL THIS THAT IS HAPPENING TO MIE NAW?
WHEN HAVE I BECOME LIKE TAT?
WHY? WHY? WHY?
AM I A GOOD GALFREN?

NONONONO!! what is all this!! i hated myself!! things are not going fine!! I'm not a good girlfren at all!! This is not going to be mie!! NONONO!! this is not RACHEL. when had you become liddat? SO UNREASONABLE? SO SHORT TEMPERED? RACHEL LIM!! what have you done??

i dunno. i dunno and i dunno!! that's wat i always answer!! i just bluff thru my way and think that everyone should be giving in to mie. did i ever reflect upon miself?? why am i letting my heart control my behaviour and not my head!! this is not right about me!! when he's in trouble you ever said that you will always be there for him. BUT now what have you done? are you there for mie? instead of being there you choose to quarrel with him and not care aniting! when have you become liddat??

you know that he has no one to turn to now and you everntually did that!! do you reali love him not? what are you thinking exactly! you told others to cherish their own relationships but what have you done? did you cherish your relationships not? i doubt so!!

RACHEL LIM!!

no one ken help you iv you never ever get rid of your STOOPID IDIOTIC TEMPER!! ken you spare a tut for others and not for yourself onli!! STOP being selfish! step back and try to analyse problems in a different angle! i know sometimes human have their tempers and we cant control it! but to the person you love. do you reali cant? are you that heartless to hurt the ones you love? think about it!! i dunno what i'm going to sae to you!! RACHEL eu reali reali have to think of others and not onli yourself!! iv you dun cherish your relationships dun regret when you ever lose it!!

i eventually scolded myself!! i dunno haw the hell ken i wrote this out. scolding miself and i was totally another person!! I SCOLDED MISELF!! mayb i should reali reflect upon mie!! i'm just a failure in love!! i may be able to help others but when things come to mie i tend to avoid!! watever it is i'll try to solve my own problems miself!!

SORRIE DARLING!!